Thursday, April 26, 2012

IVF #4 Is A Go!

Day 1 of shots is done...tomorrow starts the big guns.  All of those same feelings are surfacing again...but yet they are different.  I have Madison...that makes failure a little less painful.  If we fail, my family will not feel complete but I will know that we tried and it is time to move on.

But I need to let hope live...I need to push the scary feelings away and focus on hope.  Today I will hope!

Monday, April 9, 2012

Having A Baby = Becoming A Bad Blogger

Wow...has it really been over 3 months since my last blog post???

This parenting thing kind of keeps you busy! Don't get me wrong...I love it! I love having my little sidekick...a little one who likes to play and keep me on my toes. She is into everything now...and I mean everything! Nothing is safe...unless it is several feet off the ground. She has 11 billion toys but only wants to play with the stuff she can't have. She is stubborn and precious at the same time!

BJ is home...yay! And we are adjusting to being all together again. Madison took about 3 weeks before she really warmed up to him. She is in that awful I-only-want-my-mommy phase right now. Couple that with daddy being a stranger and that makes one miserable little girl. But she has accepted the fact that he is here and he can do all the same things as mommy. Thank goodness!

We are gearing up for another IVF cycle. I know I said long ago that the cycle that brought us Madison was our last cycle but we made the decision to give it one more try. I struggled with the idea of Madison being an only child and while she is the light of my life...I feel incomplete. Like part of my family is missing. The ball is already rolling...kind of. I spent about 2 months on BCPs and recently stopped them to get my own cycles synced up with the RE's planned cycle. If all goes the way it first injection will be around April 26th. We are shooting for ER between May 7th and May 11th. Some of you may have noticed that this would coincide with Madison's 1st birthday. Yep I will be hosting her party and going through a cycle all at the same time. Oh and we will be having her baptism during that time too. Oy vey! (I may have lost my mind!)

So hopefully that brings you up to speed and I will be able to keep up with this blog again. I am going to try blogging while Madison is taking naps. Keyword = try.